everything happens for a reason, be it good or bad, happy or sad. it's purpose is to let us learn, let us be strong and be independence. 

okay, i have not break the news to my family about my results. still in the mist of collecting every possible option available for me before having a good talk with my mummy and brother. i know they will be disappointed with me. my heart ached so much when i see my results, even those that im pretty confident in, i still fair pretty badly. i actually know where i stand. am not a very good writer, essay papers are seriously just killer to me. 

but what else can i do? im like lost in the middle of the sea, to move forward or to sail back to the habour? or mayb, sink down into the ocean. what lies ahead is pretty too much for me to face, for me to hold. but i still need to face it. 

i split everything to B, my problems, my worries, my decision. B has been very supportive and helping me to find all the alternative solution. he has been asking arnd for me while im super busy at work. grateful for his care and concern. thank you B.

i hope, i wish, i can see a  rainbow after the rain. i know after every up hill, there will be a down hill ahead. we need to put in more effort to climb up a hill, so we can enjoy the relaxing moment when we reach the down hill. yes. be strong Joanna, you can do it, you sure can.